I read this blog post by, Morning Story and Dilbert, An Unexpected Lesson in Life, it was about his chance encounter with this old man, who was shopping with his wife. The old man and his wife have been married for almost 60 years. He said that when he met her he knew she was the one. And things weren’t like when they first met, they were older, their bodies were falling apart and his wife was grumpier, BUT they were still deeply in love and happy.
This made me think about my marriage. I was crazy in love with my ex at one time. The love started to diminish when I began to not be happy in the marriage. I’ve been reading about men to understand them, but one key thing about understanding women or maybe it’s just me, my ex never made me feel Special to him. I, always, felt like a problem, a burden and there was nothing I could do to make him happy.
Yes, we both made mistakes in the marriage. We’re human. But looking back, something was missing between us. We weathered family deaths, filing bankruptcy twice, job losses, past demons, and I don’t think these things were what made the marriage end. I still loved him through all of the financial problems, his job losses and his flaws.
But, I didn’t feel the same support from him that I gave him when it came to my flaws, my family deaths and my past demons and this is why my love diminished, why I was no longer happy and why I left.
Despite my failed marriage, I still want to find love, fall in love and be happy and in love forever.