Often, I’m in my head thinking about life and what has happened, figuring out what I’m supposed to understand and if I’m at a crossroads.
I think all of us experience moments in life where we need to stop, think and figure out the moment we find ourselves in.
Many times I’ve experiened these moments. Some were not so big and others were life changing. But I learned something from each one.
When my dad was at the end stages of his cancer a part of me knew I was in a life moment. But, I let my fears and the conflict between my father and me get in the way of embracing that moment. I never told my dad I loved him and I didn’t try to resolve the conflict between us before he died. And, I regretted this.
I was in school when my mom found out she had lung cancer. Another life moment. These life moments don’t always happen at convenient times nor at times when we feel ready for them. They make their appearance and we can embrace them or ignore them.
Also, my ex and I were in Disney World on our honeymoon when I got the call my mother was in the Emergency room and she had cancer. We packed our bags and flew to Iowa.
As I sat there in the hospital with mom, a feeling came over me and I knew my time with her was going to end soon. So, I didn’t go back to graduate school, stayed in Iowa and I took care of her.
I spent what time my mother had left with her and made sure I had no regrets. I shared thoughts and feelings about my life with her, I tried to be there for her and I shared her last life moments with my mother.
When she died I had no regrets, but life memories that would help me later in life.
I find myself in another life moment as I write this. From what I’ve learned from past life moments, I know to just embrace this moment with no fear amd see where it takes me.
I’ve been fortunate to experience being in love and being loved. It’s really sad if one has never experienced being loved. I think of all the kids living in orphanages waiting for a family and waiting for someone to love them.
This could have been me. I started my life in an orphanage. But, I was One of the Lucky ones to be adopted and adopted by people, who geniunely loved me like their own.
It’s because of my parents that I feel loved and know how to love.
Now, the title of this blog, Love Unconditionally, I want all of you to think about whether you have loved someone where your heart felt full of kindess, understanding, caring and desire for someone. And, you expected nothing in return.
I had this feeling last night about someone.
Love is in my heart for him. And, I expect nothing from him. Sure, I desire him to love me back, but I understand this may never happen. And, I’m ok with it.
Because, what I know now is loving unconditionally means just love. Feel what’s in your heart. Don’t love so you can get love back, because it’s not guaranteed that loving someone that they will love you.
Loving unconditionally with no expectations, it leaves me peaceful inside and I feel good just caring and sharing my love.
Fear may be the most powerful emotion we feel. I say this, because I was thinking how we fear death, failure, pain, the unknown, the future, and the list can be endless.
I have feared all the things I have just listed. There will be moments where I’m reminded of how fear keeps me from living and really what I fear isn’t something to be afraid of.
After watching my mother struggle with cancer and die, I know what we believe matters in life really doesn’t. When facing death it’s then that we understand what’s really important.
It’s this understanding of what’s important that we need to grasp before death is knocking at our door.
Since my mother’s death, I have no fear of dying. But the living part, I’m still working on.
This is what I know now:
- Love with no limits and no strings.
- Pain doesn’t last forever.
- Failure helps us learn.
- Take the time to appreciate all the positives in our life.
- Live in the present and worry less about the future and the past has happened so let it go.
- Forgive, it benefits the forgiver.
- Learn from the pain and mistakes, but don’t let it define me.
- Do what makes me happy.
- Those Fantastic moments and Great opportunities in life, enjoy them to the fullest.
- Each day really can be a new beginning.
I’ve worked the graveyard shift for six years. Two years ago, I was tired of working the shift and was able to change my shift to a mid-day one, which is perfect for me. But then I was offered a job in a department I wanted to change to and went back to working graves.
The other day, I decided I’m really done working the grave shift and tired of being tired all the time. Yesterday, I slept pretty much the entire day after working three 12 hour graves in a row. I have two days off then go back and work two days.
I applied for a position in a different department where the hours are 11:00 A.M. to 11:30 P.M., which is perfect. I’m hoping I get the position so I can have normal work hours and my weekends off.
Orthotic Shoes have improved since I searched for them three years ago. I injured my foot and have not been able to wear cute shoes since my injury. Day after day, I wore my tennis shoes, because my orthotic inserts fit in them. But the inserts doen’t go in cute shoes!
The other day I thought I’ll search the web for orthotic sandals and came across the Orthotic Shop website. They have a variety of shoes!
I test drove my sandals today that I bought from the Orthotic Shop and they give me the support I need. Cute sandals, right?
This discovery has me so excited. I painted my toenails since I can wear sandals, again!
Despite how my day started with the PIG, who thought it was ok to say sexual things to me, I thought a Positive Thinking post was in order.
- My pups always make my days brighter and give me peace of mind knowing they will rip someone’s leg off if they try to hurt me.
2. The Soda Bottles that are half the size than the regular ones. Whoever invented these soda bottles is a genius and perfect for me, because I can never finish a full size one.
3. Friends, because they make life better and fun, and one of my friends this week was so sweet.
4. I discovered the buttermilk chicken sandwich at McDonalds the other day and it’s Yum, Yum, Yummy.
5. I watched Independence Day and it’s still a Great movie. It has been a long time since I’ve seen it.
6. Snapchat face changer, it allows me to share my silly side and start my day with a laugh.
7. I interrupted my procrastination and worked on my query letter and synopsis so I can solicite literary agents.
8. Nutribiotic all natural nose spray, I’ve gone through the worst part of allergy season without getting sick so far.
9. I found out these movies, I’ve been wanting to see, will be available at Redbox soon. I live a very uneventful life and don’t do much…LOL.
10. Ice Cream, my summer treat that I eat a lot of only when it’s hot out. Some of my favorite places to get ice cream McDonalds, Dairy Queen, Liks and Sonic.
What positive things have been happening for my fellow bloggers?
The men out there that think it’s ok to say sexual comments and/or make sexual gestures to women, well, you’re PIGS! Just because we, women, have breasts, it doesn’t equate to sexual harassment towards women is ok.
RESPECT! WOMEN DESERVE RESPECT!
It really pisses me off that I had to keep my mouth shut when this ASSHOLE thought it was ok to sexually harass me. I kept my mouth shut to not antagonize him and make the situation worse.
I was going on a run with one of my Rottweilers (thank goodness, Apollo was with me, because the ASSHOLE may have approached me instead of shouting his inappropriate comments) when I encountered this JERK.
The girl in the photo I don’t dress like that when I workout and there’s nothing wrong with the way she’s dressed. Women should have the freedom to dress any way they want and not be judged or assaulted due to how they are dressed. But, unfortunately, this is not how it is. I wear workout clothes that don’t show my curves.
It’s really sad that we live in a world where men take advantage, overpower and rape women. I received numerous calls from rape victims when I voluteered on a rape crisis line from girls, who were drugged and raped.
If I had daughters and even sons, I would enroll them in Tae Kwon Do or Karate when they are young, so they can defend themselves and never have to feel defenseless or be victimized.