I’ve been totally immersed in learning copywriting for the past week. This is my nature. I get interested in something or have a goal and my focus is on that 24/7. Everything else in my life gets ignored…LOL.
Discovering copywriting, this is not new to me. I’ve, always, known it existed, but I was never interested in learning it. I signed up for a year subscription with the Writer’s Market. The next day, an email about learning copywriting appeared in my inbox. I happen to read it instead of immediately deleting it.
After learning how copywriting is created, I was hooked. It was something I’d been doing versions of during my pursuit to be a writer. I thought, “Hell, I can do this and do it really well where I will succeed and accomplish my dream to write.”
So, fellow bloggers that is what I have been doing and why I haven’t been blogging.
First, I have to say I’m a Michael Jordan fan. When he was with the Chicago Bulls I didn’t watch basketball or any sports that much. But when the Bulls were in the NBA Finals, I watched the games and was in awe of Jordan. When I saw this quote by him I thought it’s the perfect one for this blog.
I’m having one of those days where I’m not motivated to do anything, but stare at the TV in bed. Why? I have no idea. It could be due to being tired. I woke up after sleeping six hours for the second day in a row. I ate breakfast and decided to go back to sleep, because I couldn’t put two thoughts together. Since I was useless, I figured I needed sleep.
After a couple more hours of sleep, I woke up feeling like a slug. Despite wanting to just lay in bed all day, I forced myself to get up, because I still had to take care of my pups. This is why it’s Great to have dogs, because when I was really depressed several years ago my pups kept me going.
Since I was out of bed, I got dressed. I argued with myself to just take a day off, but then I told myself that the non-profit isn’t going to start itself and my book isn’t going to get published by itself. In the next breathe, I became overwhelmed by everything that needed to be done, the money aspect of starting a non-profit and the evil invisible Failure entity.
I told myself take a baby step and get the keys to the mailbox I rented for the non-profit. Because when I went to fill out the paperwork to establish the non-profit as a 501c3 with the State of Colorado, the address part stopped me and I didn’t want to put my home address.
After picking up the keys, I have to say it has lifted my mood and sparked some motivation in me.
Let me explain…
If I had a daughter, I would tell her to focus on herself, her career and her life if she wants to be happy. And that Happiness is not going to be found by having some Man in her life. It’s up to her to complete her life and not depend on a Man to complete it.
Her life should be like a martini or if martinis aren’t your thing than a milkshake and the Man is the Cherry on top. By viewing life this way, she will already be fulfilled with her life, be happy and independent. When the right Man comes along he’ll add flavor to an already enriched life. She won’t rely on him to make her life more fulfilling, be her reason to be happy or be there to solely improve her life.
By having a martini or milkshake life, she can have a healthy relationship where the two of them can enjoy what each other bring to the table. They will be able to compliment each other. And, they won’t be co-dependent on one another.
I was raised to believe my goal in life should be to find a husband, get married and have kids and that was it. When I went to college one of my uncles asked me if I found a boyfriend and my response was I didn’t go to college to find a boy. He looked at me like I was some kinda alien and I knew he was wondering why I went to college…LOL.
Despite having the independent side and getting that my life should be like a martini, there was a part of me that was influenced by how I was raised. This could be one of the reasons my marriage failed. I depended on my ex too much. During my marriage, I kept trying to make my life a martini and, obviously, something went wrong during my pursuit for the career I desired and the happiness I searched for.
The other day I realized I really don’t want to be in a relationship right now, because when I would get on the dating sites there was constant conflict inside me about whether I wanted to date now. I kept telling myself I wanted to focus on my writing and my life.
Then it came to me. My life is not a Martini, yet, so I’m getting ahead of myself trying to find that Cherry.
I worked on the website for the non-profit I’m creating on Saturday for eight hours. After the eight hours, I took my pups for a walk and when I came back I watched a movie. In the beginning of watching the movie, I struggled with just watching the movie, because I felt I should work on my non-profit some more.
However, I kept reminding myself I have to have balance. When I get focused on something I can go mach 10, ignore everything in my life and burn myself out. After telling myself over and over to keep balance in my life, I stopped pressuring myself to keep working and just enjoyed the movie.
Later that night, I had a panic attack and became overwhelmed over my non-profit endeavor. I wondered if I was getting into something that was going to be too much for me to handle. The fear of failure crept in. I calmed myself down by telling myself that I can’t do all of this by myself and to start looking for volunteers. And I told myself that I would make lots of mistakes, but that didn’t mean I was failing.
I had to try, because the real failure was to get caught up in my fears and do nothing to achieve my Goals.
As I was perusing Facebook, THE IDEA for the kind of non-profit to create hit me. I thought about its purpose, its goals and figured out how to make it possible.
The GREAT thing about it is I can start it myself. I won’t need a staff, so the cost is minimal.
Best part about it, I’m fulfilling a dream, which is saving as many dogs as I can!
Yes, I still want to be a published writer and I’m still pursuing that. But, I’ve learned that in life a person should always have a plan A, plan B and a plan C.
The non-profit will be a fun, exciting and challenging job that I’ll enjoy doing as I wait to become Twilight Big writer success…lol. I don’t need to be that successful as a writer. But, it doesn’t hurt to dream.
If you recall my previous blog titled, Mom-Dreams, my mom was in this dream where I was discussing how I wanted to create a non-profit. Yeah, I know freaky, but I’ve come to learn that the dreams with my mother and/or my father in them they are telling me about the future.
Before my mother died, I told her she could still talk to me after she is gone. I told her she could talk to me and I would hear her or she could come to me in my dreams. Yes, every since I was a kid I could sense the dead. I don’t see dead people that would freak me out, but I know when the dead are around. Strange, I know. It still freaks me out.
After mom died, it took a year after her death, but she figured out how to communicate with me, because she has talked to me through my dreams several times. When she pops up in one of my dreams I pay attention to the dream. I really need to start writing my dreams down again so I can keep track of them. Lately, the dreams I had with my mom in them have been transpiring in my waking life.
I had a dream about the guy I was dating and he was traveling. He had to take an alternate route due to floods. I was talking to him on the phone as he was traveling. My mom was in the dream along with my Rottweiler, Daisy, who has passed on, too. The two of them have showed up together in my dreams often and I still don’t know what it means or if it means anything that Daisy is in the dreams.
The other day I was texting with the guy I was dating. When he told me that he had to take the bus instead of Amtrak due to flooding, deja vu happened. I recalled the dream I had several months ago that I described in the previous paragraph.
Today, I had a dream with only my mom in it. I was discussing with her about starting a non-profit. This is something I’ve been pondering for awhile and the guy I was dating suggested I start a non-profit.
I don’t know if this is my mother’s way of telling me to get moving on starting that non-profit or that I will start a non-profit soon. But I do know that my mama is telling me something when she shows up in my dreams.
I loved this movie. Chris Gardner is such a Great role model for success.
The struggle that Gardner went through to accomplish his goals really portrays what life is all about.
Everything is a struggle.
The career we desire.
The life we want.
Money we wish for.
Love we desire.
Sucks that everything is a struggle, but if we didn’t go after the things that would make us happy then what kind of life would we have?
I’ve been in the Zone for the past 6 days.
When I’m working on my writing nothing else exists and pretty much everything gets ignored. This use to drive my ex crazy, because I was so focused on my goals and neglected him, housekeeping, cooking and pretty much everything.
Balance, I’m still working on this, but I slip and go into the Zone when I get obsessed at accomplishing, finishing or conquering a goal I’ve set for myself.
On Fridays, when it’s my four days off I’ve learned to just clean my place right when I get home from work. This way it gets done and I’ve done something other than focus on finishing my book.
My dogs force me to stop and exercise, because they can’t be neglected. They can’t walk themselves…lol. Or take care of themselves.
And, I did take time and have some fun during the six days. So, I’m improving and not completely immersing myself in my work.
After the marathon editing the past couple of days, I’ve finished editing the whole book for the last time.
There’s some tweeks I still need to take care of and I need to reread a section of a chapter I came across that might not flow. I read the chapters so fast that I don’t know if my brain was just tried or it wasn’t flowing right.
However, the editing is pretty much done and it’s on to looking for a Literary Agent.
I’m getting my armor shined and ready for this next phase. All the writers out there know what I’m talking about, yes, the rejection letters.
While I’m trying to get a literary agent to fall in love with my book, I’ll be working on Book Two.
Yes, this book is a series. Four books total.
I have three chapters left to edit. Since 5:30 today, I’ve been editing and read 11 chapters. My brain is kinda hurting…lol.
When I found out I had six days off I thought of all the fun things I could do and I wasn’t going to spend the time editing. What have I done during my time off?
Edit My Book!
Focused. Obsessed. I don’t know which one it is, but I didn’t expect to finish the editing during my time off.
Today, something got into me and I became determined to finish the edit.